Sunday, July 16, 2006

I dont feel like it...

This week has been weird. I have done some work, played around, gotten some reast but i jjust dont feel like doing anything. I couldnt even muster enough to write this out...well almost couldnt.
Myabe its cause my family is gone and I am lonely? Maybe my perfectionist procrastination is kicking in big time..I dont know. There is so so much to do with the church plant and i am really feeling overwhelmdeed with it all. I will be driving down the road thinking of all i have to do then get where i am going and not want to do it. It like pulling teeth to even make a phone call. sheesh.
I tend to tie up my hopes in things, events, people. Like not i am tellingn myself it will be better when my wife gets home, but will it? Really easy to question everything when I fell like this. I just want to run away, or sleep it away or...I dont know. Heck even writing this which was hard enough is just an excuse to not being doing something else....crap.
Ever feel like this? Anyone?

oh well. I got things not to do.

later.

1 comment:

nate said...

i feel that way at times too...I'm praying for you and mystery.